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Oh Bliss!

Posted on 26. Mar, 2011 by matthew in Blog

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5 years ago I began meditating. I was told that through it I would find the answers to many of life’s challenges, and find connection to everything within this big wide universe.

In 5 years of practicing I have had all kinds of experiences. Many times it surfaced my shadow so that I could heal it. It still does. I would sit there feeling frustrated, unable to quiet my busy and noisy mind. The mind that told me this was a waste of time, that I had to get on with useful things in life.

Feelings of shame, anger, depression, and sadness would all surface. Seemingly making it so that I might never achieve that state of bliss I sought. But something told me that all these experts and sages could not be wrong.

And so I have persisted, and I have recommended meditation to clients. Sometimes grabbing five minutes when I could, and sometimes sitting for periods of over an hour. As long as I would let go of getting a certain result out of it, I knew that I could keep going.

In recent months I have been initiated into Kriya yoga and the meditations that I have practiced daily have opened up things so awesomely. They call it “The Lightning Path” and I have been getting an idea as to why that is. These last few months have been intense.

But despite the breakdowns that have been going on in my outer world, I have been getting deeper and deeper glimpses of the bliss I had long ago been promised. And through the process I have been getting clearer and clearer on who I really am. Old me is falling way, as more and more my authentic self emerges from the ashes.

What has been great too is that I have found the meditation practice that works for me. I have enjoyed so many of the others practices that I have followed. This one just seemed to be the one that has resonated most deeply with my soul. The teacher, the practice, and the direction it took me, all feel true to who I am.

So, in the beginning you may find that all meditation does for you is remind you of what you have not looked at within yourself. You may be called to face your deepest fears. You may only notice more shame, anger and resentment. You may try a number of different types of meditation practices until you find the one that feels like home to you.

Never give up on it though. And find someone who can guide you through the emotions that surface. I am truly grateful that even though I did not feel the bliss that many spoke of, that I kept going. I found support and help in understanding what was surfacing and why. Now I am beginning to feel that bliss for myself. Meditations have been profound and I know that it will open up even more.

If you are interested in the type of meditation that I practice now, check out this website. It is not one that I can teach for I am still a student, but I hope that it lifts many of you as it has lifted me.

www.HamsaYoga.org

Meditation truly is one of my favourite parts of the spiritual life. That along with the greater joy, the connections to life and enhanced feelings of love of the world . With the connection that we can create through meditation we can take it out to the world. It may not take you 5 years to achieve the states I have achieved. I had a lot of resistance to letting go and trusting completely in God.

And it ain’t over yet! I am going to keep going on this path, I am going to keep meditating, for I know that there is much left to experience.

What are you waiting for? Take a seat, close your eyes, focus on your breath, and begin your journey of the soul.